Okay no one reads this blog except me, so i shouldnt feel bad about not posting(: Im really happy that i was given a chance to even live a day on earth, I know what it is like breathing and the feeling of love. I cant help but wonder why it is human nature to have negative thoughts, its useless to me and i dont think i want it. I dont like the feeling of being jealous and all, I wish someone would help me overcome that. I have really big exams next year and i hope that i realize i need to pick myself up now. My confirmation is next year and im sure ill be ready for it. Till then, kiss kiss.

if only this kind of thing would really happen. hey, i just thought i blog about how my life is almost parctically horrible. Urgh. I dk who will be silly enough to invite only some people to a party and worse still, invite only one person from a clique-.- Okay. People cannot be trusted anymore. Thats why life kinda sucks. Anyway, im starting to get bored in schoolm & all. Sigh. What am i gonna do. Okay. My pledge, Imma continue to be nice to everyone (as in since the start of this year), Hmm forgive all the people that didnt mean to hurt me in anyway. <: See how it goes. K, bathing.

Why do you have to be so cute! If you werent, i doubt ill even like you in that way, But since you are, i really think im starting to hmm, not like, but maybe crushing on you or eyecandy you. Hhehehehe, i like all our convos, so fun and carefree, not to mention super random. but its funny. Hahahah. Cant possibly like you cause in a few days or weeks, i wont feel that wat anymore, Hoho, yeah, its always like that. Cant remember how we met but sure was nice meeting you, hahaha. <: Dont you just hate it whenn people you are texting reply late cause they are texting other people?? -.-" Cause i really hate it, Like, just ignore my texts & dont rpely simple as that cause youre kinda defeating the purpose of text messaging, /: Hmm, will you talk to someone you havent met? No right? People that do that just seem like sluts and bastards to me, I know im in no position to judge, but im saying, its my opinion. Soo flirt, Not to mention disgusting, Okay. Not really directing the post to anyone, just writing down stuff i should have said long ago. Hehehehe, Okay,Lunching now. <: Hmm, i really want someone who would call me and tell me everything's gonna be okay just when i need it. ): But who would do that for anyone right? I <3 my friends. ^^

Hey. Sigh. Im really sad. I guess im just not what they are looking for and like, maybe i ought to do something else. I really wanted to do it, i thought it was gonna be my big break but i guess i was wrong. Hmm, why would you ask me such questions, I migght thiink stuff but it will definitely not be true so why bother right? Hahah, I miss church camp. Cant believe im saying taht but yeap. Cause in about 3 or 4 months, we wont see each other on a regular basis again. /: Hmm, Sad. Okay. My life's always depressing but if he wants it that way, then i guess im okay with it. Xoxo, <3

Hey. I know i havent been posting. So sorry. Been kinda busy. Yupp. Module one was a blast. Super fun. More fun than I thought actually. Instructors were great. Never felt it before. Hmm, My church camp's coming up and I really cant wait ohgawdd. Haha, I feel like puking. Thats gross i know. Heheh. Hmm, church camp would mean more drama i guess. But i have to go so i guess i cant runaway from reality. Sigh, People seem to be so two-faced nowadays and im really scared to trust anyone ever again. Okay, Study rush soon. (: Hope i remember to post! <: