okay so my blog is being updated less frequently nowadays so here is a quick update. I just started school again and i am determined to get As and work harder. i feel it was a bummer for most of my grades considering the amount of effort i actually put into them. Oh and i didnt make it for the spot in the top 25. thats for soccer. sigh. i had a feeling i was not gonna get in alr due to the fact that i couldnt control the ball properly and many other reasons. but when i didnt hear my name being called, i still felt disappointed and sad i mean its just a human instinct, i couldnt help it.I didnt talk to my friends much after that. jsut for a while. i needed time to think.

White Lies II was yesterday and i went with Rai. we were joined by anda and amalia. haha i texted susan, to congratulate her properly on making the team. Rai was telling me how amalia and susan were concerned about me cause i hadnt been replying the group chat. so i texted susan. just to prevent any misunderstandings. The performance was really really good,i enjoyed it so much. and laughed a lot. it felt good to laugh. everytime i laugh i feel like i didnt have any thing to care about in the world. i felt super light. my parents are not in singapore and i feel empty. plus, my great grand aunt passed away. i do not want anyone i love to go. even if its to heaven, i will miss them so so much. even if its someone i do not like or if the person had done something super mean to me, if they die, i will still cry. thats just naomi for you.

I wish the world can be just happy and safe for everyone. the people responsible for wars are people unhappy. so why cant everyone just be happy or satisfied with what they have. i was having dinner with susan, amalia and rai at macs yesterday when it started to pour. we were running to the bus stop in the rain, when we saw this guy carrying bags and bags of stuff. i was not in a rush so i ran over to help him with his bags. he told me he needed them at Bukit Timah Plaza, which was not exactly near or far from where we were, so i agreed. my friends helped as well. we found out he was a soccer coach and to me, it felt like a sign from god. cause i was lost about soccer due to the news about the team. it just felt like i needed to get back on my feet and try harder the next round. the pic below is of us and the man we helped. we were drenched but its not exactly visible in the picture.

Okay with that said, i feel drifted from sykki and joey and val. we didnt see each other much during the holidays and maybe that explains it. idk why but valerie seems really aloof and idk what to say to her, and i feel bad cause she is one of my good friends. sigh. i am closer to azlyn. our friendship just kinda happened and developed from there so there really is'nt much to it. we have been eating together and all so yeap. i still think im great friends with sykki and joey and val, but there is just this gap that idk how to seal. Sigh pie.

I have decided to laugh more, cause i feel the need to. also to try and smile more. i need to change my mindset. azlyn and i have been doing stuff that makes us laugh. we are like anti social to people who we are not close to so yeap that is fun for us. and its makes me happy. i love laughing. i do not want to feel sad or unwanted anymore. if i ever feel that way. i am just going to laugh about it. life is too short la. kay, that is all. loves.xoxoxoxo.

PS: Below are some pics where i was at the peak of my happiness during the past few weeks :)

okay so my blog is being updated less frequently nowadays so here is a quick update. I just started school again and i am determined to get As and work harder. i feel it was a bummer for most of my grades considering the amount of effort i actually put into them. Oh and i didnt make it for the spot in the top 25. thats for soccer. sigh. i had a feeling i was not gonna get in alr due to the fact that i couldnt control the ball properly and many other reasons. but when i didnt hear my name being called, i still felt disappointed and sad i mean its just a human instinct, i couldnt help it.I didnt talk to my friends much after that. jsut for a while. i needed time to think.

White Lies II was yesterday and i went with Rai. we were joined by anda and amalia. haha i texted susan, to congratulate her properly on making the team. Rai was telling me how amalia and susan were concerned about me cause i hadnt been replying the group chat. so i texted susan. just to prevent any misunderstandings. The performance was really really good,i enjoyed it so much. and laughed a lot. it felt good to laugh. everytime i laugh i feel like i didnt have any thing to care about in the world. i felt super light. my parents are not in singapore and i feel empty. plus, my great grand aunt passed away. i do not want anyone i love to go. even if its to heaven, i will miss them so so much. even if its someone i do not like or if the person had done something super mean to me, if they die, i will still cry. thats just naomi for you.

I wish the world can be just happy and safe for everyone. the people responsible for wars are people unhappy. so why cant everyone just be happy or satisfied with what they have. i was having dinner with susan, amalia and rai at macs yesterday when it started to pour. we were running to the bus stop in the rain, when we saw this guy carrying bags and bags of stuff. i was not in a rush so i ran over to help him with his bags. he told me he needed them at Bukit Timah Plaza, which was not exactly near or far from where we were, so i agreed. my friends helped as well. we found out he was a soccer coach and to me, it felt like a sign from god. cause i was lost about soccer due to the news about the team. it just felt like i needed to get back on my feet and try harder the next round. the pic below is of us and the man we helped. we were drenched but its not exactly visible in the picture.

Okay with that said, i feel drifted from sykki and joey and val. we didnt see each other much during the holidays and maybe that explains it. idk why but valerie seems really aloof and idk what to say to her, and i feel bad cause she is one of my good friends. sigh. i am closer to azlyn. our friendship just kinda happened and developed from there so there really is'nt much to it. we have been eating together and all so yeap. i still think im great friends with sykki and joey and val, but there is just this gap that idk how to seal. Sigh pie.

I have decided to laugh more, cause i feel the need to. also to try and smile more. i need to change my mindset. azlyn and i have been doing stuff that makes us laugh. we are like anti social to people who we are not close to so yeap that is fun for us. and its makes me happy. i love laughing. i do not want to feel sad or unwanted anymore. if i ever feel that way. i am just going to laugh about it. life is too short la. kay, that is all. loves.xoxoxoxo.

PS: Below are some pics where i was at the peak of my happiness during the past few weeks :)

Name: Naomi Sarah
Location: Auckland
DOB: 15th May
Age: 29

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