Udder Conversation
Monday, March 18, 2013
This is going to be one of the most saddest post i will post. i don't want anyone to read it so ill most likely private this post or something. i just found out stuff that i honestly, would rather not know about. I don't want to see you guys, both of you. i'm happy that you two are finally opening up and relating to each other but its so painful for me to hear cause i feel as though i have been replaced. which i know and accept its true. but if you would only let me get over it in peace, i cant get over my lost friendship if you keep bringing it up to me and how it is now your friendship right. No dear, i'm not blaming you. i understand that you cant talk to anyone else about it since no one else knows. but if you would just give me a minute to take all this new information in, that will be great. Just let me adapt to my new surroundings. You know? how i'm not his friend anymore and yeap. its difficult for me. Woah, i really hope you don't tell me that you've read this cause i know you did. He is almost idiotic for thinking everything would just fall right into place like that. Babe, honestly, im really happy you've found someone that you can relate to. Airports and all. Great right? But please don't bring me into your friendship.like don't ever mention me in your conversations. don't mention him in our conversations. two simple rules. okay? :) If you can't remember, its okay. ill remind you. When I don't reply when you talk to me, you probably mentioned something about him or his name. if its like this, we wont even be talking much cause he is somewhat the main topic. & you know how you said you would help me by talking to him and asking him what happened to us? yeap, you need not do that anymore. its alright. it is not that i do not want your help, i just felt that it is no longer necessary. So that is all for your case.
Another case, i don't know why he texted you. why he mentioned me to you. But either way, i know it is not your fault. you were not expecting it. i saw from your expression. But whats the difference. i still feel the same way. nothing. i feel nothing. so he can text you all he wants. as long as it does not involve me. & your problems right, i think you can settle with the people you tell it too. you no longer tell me much nowadays and i don't blame you. cause you can tell your problems to whoever you want to. But since its not related to me, why cant i know? kay this is super ironic. idk what im doing with my life. and why i am bothering about this. Hmm, how are you suddenly so close to her. sigh. drift drift drift. you, me and her. thanks for idk. In poon's p5 term :FSB.
Last case, im okay with you but why is it that every time i have to work with you i feel my energy is being drained. you are like so un-interesting. But after what i heard about you from someone else, i feel like i have been a real bitch and you should know cause i texted you a heartfelt text. Ahh yeap nothing else i wanna say la k.
Okay guys! tomorrow i was supposed to have a mahjong session at my place. but because of some fuqing infection, i think i'm gonna cancel it lah. Firstly, its cause i have to wear medicine pants to "AIR" the infection, secondly, my medicine pants is really big so yeap, wont be a very pleasing sight. tryna break the news to9 the guys now, hope they don't get upset. even if they do, they can never be or feel as upset as how i'm feeling now. xoxo
