what up with dat grainy face.

So this week or weekend had some ups and downs like always. but the staurday was extremely unbearable. So lets start from school, My assignment for animation kinda got deleted. The layers, so that meant i had to re do it. It happened on a monday and the due date was on tuesday, so that meant that either i pull an all nighter or fail. Cause i really had a lot of work to do. i messaged mr erwin and asked for extend in dealine, because he didnt reply till late at night, i was still trying to finish my work. I was so happy to see his reply so i went to sleep. I managed to finish my assignment and hand in to him by the new deadline. azlyn helped me to keyframe it, which was so sweet one step had like 40 frames. which is CRAZYYYYY. I lav her so much. but i think at one point she got annoyed and just sat quiet, AGAIN, i wont know what kind of things to do when this happens so i didnt, i was just sitting there, scared. lol, sorry azzy. i really am scared ah. haha when you suddenly quiet.

Next thing that happened, i got chosen to play for a friendly against winchester FC. Super good team and i was intimidated and scared which made me kinda reluctant to play, then i just felt like i should go for it so i did. We didnt win, 3-1, but it was a good fight. My coach said we did well. Joy and susan cried, so that kinda left an impact on my memory. They did well, i knew that. Learning point ah. For me, i asked coach how i played, he said i did better, which is more than what i wanted to hear cause at least i know i am improving right? 

Okay and the last thing, also the one that is still disturbing me is this. Yesterday, i was gonna go check on my hamster and play with it like i always do. But instead of its usual place, it was lying down on its side, looking so weak. At first i thought it was dead, so i nudged it a little, and it moved back, so i knew it was still alive. I opened the cage and carried it onto my palm. during whcih it looked like the picture on below. It was having difficulty breathing and it had some spasms. So by then i knew it was gonna die. some of my friends asked that i bring him to the vet, but watching them die more than once, i knew it will be too late. It as healthy the day before, its just at night when it was really windy and i think it affected it, but i am really not sure. Either that or its just old. Hamsters dont live that long anyway/: i was tearing up just watching it catch every breath it could, i didnt want to put t back in the cage, why let it die in a place so empty. I just lay there on the sofa with it on my palm just watching it which telling it " you will make it through". i prayed and all, hoping if it were to die, it dies soon so its suffering will end. and it did. At about 1.37pm on 18 January, This hammy peacefully passed away, on my palm. I felt its last breath trigger the nerves on my palm and tears just started to flow out while i walked over to the kitchen and prepare its burial.  I put it in a lunchbox unlike my other hamsters, one of my favourite lunch boxes, A towel bed, a pillow and a blanket. Reminded me so much of what i did with sammy. My parents told me not to keep anymore hamsters as they felt the pain i felt, i love animals, and i feel empty not playing with my pet for a day. So anyway, this is what happened. I kissed it when it died like what i did with the rest, they deserve a longer life span. I wish people treated them more nicely(some kids are cruel to hamsters or small animals). RIP Hammy.

Hammy in my palm yesterday.                                       Hammy in her coffin before blanket is on. 

what up with dat grainy face.

So this week or weekend had some ups and downs like always. but the staurday was extremely unbearable. So lets start from school, My assignment for animation kinda got deleted. The layers, so that meant i had to re do it. It happened on a monday and the due date was on tuesday, so that meant that either i pull an all nighter or fail. Cause i really had a lot of work to do. i messaged mr erwin and asked for extend in dealine, because he didnt reply till late at night, i was still trying to finish my work. I was so happy to see his reply so i went to sleep. I managed to finish my assignment and hand in to him by the new deadline. azlyn helped me to keyframe it, which was so sweet one step had like 40 frames. which is CRAZYYYYY. I lav her so much. but i think at one point she got annoyed and just sat quiet, AGAIN, i wont know what kind of things to do when this happens so i didnt, i was just sitting there, scared. lol, sorry azzy. i really am scared ah. haha when you suddenly quiet.

Next thing that happened, i got chosen to play for a friendly against winchester FC. Super good team and i was intimidated and scared which made me kinda reluctant to play, then i just felt like i should go for it so i did. We didnt win, 3-1, but it was a good fight. My coach said we did well. Joy and susan cried, so that kinda left an impact on my memory. They did well, i knew that. Learning point ah. For me, i asked coach how i played, he said i did better, which is more than what i wanted to hear cause at least i know i am improving right? 

Okay and the last thing, also the one that is still disturbing me is this. Yesterday, i was gonna go check on my hamster and play with it like i always do. But instead of its usual place, it was lying down on its side, looking so weak. At first i thought it was dead, so i nudged it a little, and it moved back, so i knew it was still alive. I opened the cage and carried it onto my palm. during whcih it looked like the picture on below. It was having difficulty breathing and it had some spasms. So by then i knew it was gonna die. some of my friends asked that i bring him to the vet, but watching them die more than once, i knew it will be too late. It as healthy the day before, its just at night when it was really windy and i think it affected it, but i am really not sure. Either that or its just old. Hamsters dont live that long anyway/: i was tearing up just watching it catch every breath it could, i didnt want to put t back in the cage, why let it die in a place so empty. I just lay there on the sofa with it on my palm just watching it which telling it " you will make it through". i prayed and all, hoping if it were to die, it dies soon so its suffering will end. and it did. At about 1.37pm on 18 January, This hammy peacefully passed away, on my palm. I felt its last breath trigger the nerves on my palm and tears just started to flow out while i walked over to the kitchen and prepare its burial.  I put it in a lunchbox unlike my other hamsters, one of my favourite lunch boxes, A towel bed, a pillow and a blanket. Reminded me so much of what i did with sammy. My parents told me not to keep anymore hamsters as they felt the pain i felt, i love animals, and i feel empty not playing with my pet for a day. So anyway, this is what happened. I kissed it when it died like what i did with the rest, they deserve a longer life span. I wish people treated them more nicely(some kids are cruel to hamsters or small animals). RIP Hammy.

Hammy in my palm yesterday.                                       Hammy in her coffin before blanket is on.