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Wednesday, April 2, 2014


Most people would'nt know this except for anda, but i ran away from home recently, and only came back 2 days later. Reason being my family are super unreasonable and insensitive about things. My sister asked me to help her torrent this movie as she needs it for school,so i did. She had been ignoring me for about a week now because i made a comment on lesbians... Its not even bad.It was something good. i was telling my mom that we should be able to come home bringing whichever sex home as our other half and not have to feel that its wrong or whatever. Because of that, she got upset. I wrote her a letter and apologized after talking to my younger sister about it. She didn't say anything about the letter or if she had forgiven me. She only talked to me when she asked me for her movie.

Anyway, i downloaded her movie and i told her to pass me a thumbdrive so as to transfer it over to her computer. She asked me to use dropbox instead so i did, i was trying to upload it but my dropbox was full so i made a new account. During which she asked me if i could hang the clothes, i said yes. After 5 mins, she asked me to go hang the clothes again, i said okay, then she asked again, i said okay, now really annoyed but tolerating cause she is older than me. She said," If yes then why you not moving, go and hang the clothes." I was like getting pissed off, so i told her , IM TRYING TO SEND YOUR MOVIE RIGHT? she replied, " so long meh?" Then i said yes and that my dropboxwas full and i needed to make a new one etc etc. and you know wht she said? " just put in my thumbdrive lah" so i just left and went to hang the clothes. 

That was the night i decided to leave. my mum had been nagging, she doesn't say it but she kept hinting when i was on my laptop, she would look upset. and she would tell me i should help around the house. Being the only person at home most of the time, i do the house work. Not everything of course, i do the vaccuming and mopping , folding of clothes and emptying the dustbin. Is that not doing my chores? When having meals i always clean up after myself, so if i don't wash everything at least i've washed my own right? My brother also plays a part in this, but i have already said everything in the previous post, You can only take so much till you figure that you need a break or that it is enough. for me, i needed a break. During my time away, i figured my sister would find my behaviour childish and shit,this was confirmed when i saw someone RT her tweet.

Wow. i know her really well. the thing about my family is, they talk bad about you behind your back. Awesome right, so loving. so like yeap i knew they wouln't care much if i were to leave. My dad  even though i told him exactly where i was ans how long i was gonna be there for, he still got upset and blamed me and started telling me to take care of my mum and that he won't wake up tmr and that i did a "GOOD JOB". thank you, this makes me feel way better and i totally want to be part of this family even more. obviously you won't take any chances with your parent's death so i am now at home. staying here for a while more before i leave and stay at my grandma's house. Fuck this place lah seriously, i can't wait to move out and make my own money.